Am i doing the wrong thing? I just wan to help u... Let's don say b4 u get ur diploma, cos it's still early to discuss abt it. But even after u graduated for 2months plus, u r still clueless. Long be u graduate, i have being asking u wat path u wan to tk, which job u wan to do. But u always say see first or don noe. The reson why i asked u bcos i don wan u to think only after u graduated. Cos by then u will be wasting ur time trying to sort out ur career and it's pointless. Therefore i always tried to enlighten u, and hoped tat u will planned b4 hand. But.... Hai...
I'm not trying to rush u neither i wan to push u. I just don wan u to waste ur time. All this wasted time are abt knowledge, money and experience. Why u wan to waste it when i'm actually working at the same time and i don really have time to accompany u. I noe tat u only wan to work after i went NS. But do u really need to do tat. NO... If i'm not working now, maybe i can understand tat u wan to accompany me. But i'm actually working from 10.30am to 9.30pm( Monday to Sunday including ONLY 1 day off ). Do u really think tat i can afford to fork out extra time for u. U r actually wasting ur own time slacking away ur life. U study so much for wat, do u really wan to waste it. I'm not reprimanding u. Just wan to enlighten u from ur whole thinking. I have been trying to think for excuses for u. But i can't, or i can say not really one of the excuses impress me. Cos all the excuses are bullshit. If u say tat u willing to waste the 6 months just to wait for me to go to NS, then u go to work... Then i can tell u, i'm really disappointed on u. I felt sad for ur mum's effort to pay for ur education's fees, i felt sad for the teachers who taught u, i felt sad for u wasting ur time, lastly i felt sad for myself cos costing all these bullshit. I really hate myself if i'm the culprit behind all these. I will nv forgive myself if u continue to slack away.
I noe u r very stressful. Maybe i u can say it's bcos of me pushing u so hard. But do u really think it's all my fault. If u really think for our future and be more realistic then do u still think tat u will have all this unnececcesary stresses. If u really think tat by not working and staying 24 standby for me till i go NS is best for me and u. Then i can tell u, i don derserved all these. I can't repay ur wasted time and experience back to u. This is not the best foe me, It's my worse nightmare. Therefore i have been asking u wat u wan to do after u graduated cos i really afraid tat all THESE will happen. And it does HAPPEN. I'm not the only one rushing u, ur parents, my mum, everyone is rushing u to get a job except for urself. ONE against all. Do u really have to do this. I noe tat u may thinik tat wat u r doing is right and u wan to do it ur way. But do u really think tat wat u r doing is correct. Is all abt wasting ur precious time. It doesn't strenghten our relationship but it weaken it. Don't u realise tat we only quarrel abt this issue. And do u still really wan to continue doing it. Everyone is concerned abt u, just hoping tat u can quickly find a decent job and gain more experience and enough some money. But only care for ur own thinking. If u work, then ur mum don wan to supply u wif more allowance. This way, u can reduce ur mum's burden. And at the same time i can save more money. I stress this, it's not abt money. It's abt ur future. If u work, u won't be slacking at home and bored to death. If u work, u can noe more ppl and gain more experience. Why u wan to waste it.. Why can't u think of all these points. If u say u felt stress. Wat abt me. I felt ur stress too. My mum always ask me when u getting a job and she even recommand tat u go and study first then u go work cos u have not been working. She don wan u to waste ur time. I'm under stress too.
Dear Dear, i'm not really angry wif u. I'm just disppointed. U can say we don understand u. But does ur doings understandable. Is it realistic. Like wat u say, i have been trying to be nice to u and trying to sort out everything. But u always don give me a chance to do it. I really hope tat this post can really do me a big favour; to enlighen u. I don wan u to be unhappy after reading this, i just wan u to understand wat i think. Cos i really wan a better future for the both of us. MUACK>>>MUACK>>>MUACK>>>